The Tune of Deserving Love

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Photo: One Foot Island, Autitaki, Cook Islands by J. Wilder Bill

During our millennial enlightenment, the trend for how to love pressures us to disconnect from responsibility. We are enticed into the false-beauty of delving into the darkest corners of our personal feelings.

The shift from idealized happiness to painstaking denial is clear from the television guide list. When I tune into network channels for a little down time from cancerous family members, repairing a hurricane damaged home, proving to giant corporations they’ve been double charging my bill for years, and managing fraud, my poor little brain gets blindsided. Explosive emotions dominate the themes. Tag lines for the shows includes, “dysfunctional family” and “masterful in eliciting a range of feelings” and “dark, nuanced.” If I wanted to spend my free time listening to people argue, I’d just assume turn off the tube and dedicate more time with loved ones. The trend on and offscreen is to demand the right to deserve love.

The fact is, what it takes to receive loved hasn’t changed, ever. No criteria exists for earning the right to love. Business leader, Malcolm S. Forbes, put the low emotional returns of living a high drama life into perspective, saying, “Too many people overvalue what they are not and undervalue what they are.”

Qualifying how difficult your life is to receive a greater amount than the next guy generates a competition, but love is not distributed in limited rations. The behavior you tune into provides a precedent of how you process the environment. Basically, the more time you spend in a situation, pleasant or dysfunctional, the more you get used to the stimuli.

Our brains adjust to processing the heightened emotions by disconnecting certain awareness sensors. Once those signals of threat and pain are tuned out, we accept the bad as being normal. The good news is we can adapt to anything, however, adapting to the barrage of resentment fractures our channels for receiving love.

The scenario, “birds of a feather flock together,” applies to the way we adjust our actions to mimic the behavior of those we spend time with. Exposing yourself to high drama, whether televised or in person, is counterproductive to receiving love.

Using anger as proof you deserve love removes you from what you crave. The modern coping skill of keeping a tally of every monstrosity you’ve suffered implies you consider your experience to be more significant, and you don’t care about others. Once undervalued and unappreciated, those around you disconnect from your message, since their brain adjusts by tuning out the bad feelings. They won’t identify love with a ranting person. I’ve learned to be careful in mentioning my hardships, because just as soon as I feel sorry for myself, the person next to me shares a greater hardship.

The more we use drama in despising the sensation of lacking love, the greater we distances herself from feeling loved. “Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it,” stated Rumi.

You only need to show up and be present to acquire genuine love. No one else has to participate in your receiving love. There is nothing for you to qualify. Skip rallying together an audience to support your cause to prove your highest ranking in getting the most love. “What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us,” provides Ralph Waldo Emerson.

Even if you believe you have a resilience to harsh words, putting them out there has the same effect of stabbing yourself with a knife. Hearing the insulting references and self loathing is harmful to your emotional self.

Thinking demeaning thoughts about yourself places you in the role of playing the victim, and the lower you place your emotional self, the farther you are from accepting love. While in law school, I would tell myself repeatedly that I was going to flunk out of school as a motivational tactic. After graduating, I acquired a position at a desirable workplace. A fellow graduate ran into me at the courthouse, and was agitated that all those years I whined about barely making it when I was capable of landing such a prestigious position. I felt bad, and a bit ashamed, because I didn’t realize my self motivation technique offended others. I made others feel less deserving by spreading my low energy, when I stored a full reserve of quality mentality for my personal thoughts.

Wake up each day glad to be you. Don’t shy away from embracing the electrifying charge of unfortunate events in your past. The challenges were moments to broaden your perception of universal love. The pain you felt was personal to you, which gave you the opportunity to make love in your life a personal experience. Instead of loathing your challenges, recognize them as manifestations of your insightful depth. Knowledge is a precious commodity and transforming difficulties into fables for you to share with others on similar paths allows your purpose on this planet to soar.

Your trials and tribulations, whether you felt they were unfair or viable punishments, make you an expert in resolving that subject. Give yourself the special treatment you know in your heart you deserve. According to Gautama Buddha, “You can search the world over and you will find no one who is more deserving of your kindness and well wishing than you yourself.”

If you are unconvinced your life isn’t the horrifying torture you perceive, participate more in the world and explore your neighbor’s path. Protect yourself from eroding your love shield by evaluating the behaviors you tune into, both on and off the big screen. Now is a time for opening your awareness.

Archangel for Each Sunday

image of prayer card of Saint Michael

In the early rays of Sunday, when the moon is out of sight,

I listen for the swishing sword of mighty warrior’s delight.

Archangel Michael battles beasts, and dragons with dark fangs,

Never misses the mark upon which the steady blade he aims.

If light alludes my life purpose, and I wander, lost in fear,

I call on his brave endurance because he will always hear.

His army instills self esteem, and courage through the belief,

Gives direction with protection as highest angelic chief.

 

Michael and his mighty army, defeat obstacles away.

He who is as God honors faith for a better loving day.

Emerald wings and a smile that gleams, he handsomely arrives,

To destroy all foes and end woes, plus dry up teary eyes.

When I need pardon from choices, which prove me to be flawed,

My righteousness is defended by he who is as God.

I call on Archangel Michael for courage to set free,

From last judgment when repentance, release the abyss key.

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Archangel Raziel Shares Secrets

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Photo: ‎⁨Taynuilt⁩, ⁨Scotland⁩, ⁨United Kingdom⁩ by hotel concierge

Dreams appear as theater productions but with deeper emphasis on personal perspectives. For each of us, certain themes tend to appear throughout our lives.

Visions of libraries and pyramids dominate my nightly reviews of life. Beginning in my early childhood, I prayed for the Wisdom, Knowledge and Understanding embraced by King Solomon but the crystal clear visions of libraries appeared in response to my request for developing a Divine connection with the Highest Source where I reach the highest level of enlightenment.

In them, an elderly sage patiently shares his personal library of tablets with sacred symbols kept in numerous pyramids. Sometimes, he guides me to a jungle with lavish waterfalls. Other times we travel to the ocean floor. Modest collections are stored in caves housing manatees. Some are in contemporary pyramids with interior moats and his staff of scribes.

His name is Archangel Raziel, and he’s assured me all who seek his knowledge have access to his libraries. While a flash of his presence translates into cobalt blue and golden yellow caps, his energetic frequency travels across the rainbow spectrum while his embodied figure appears as a pot of gold.

His service as the Angel of Mystery is to contain, yet share, the secrets he learned from sitting beside the throne of God. An intellect and soothsayer, Raziel documented the universal codes, which he generously translates to all who ask for answers, specifically as it relates to their spiritual paths and opening their channels of intuition. He clarifies our subconscious interpretations of our previous choices and how they relate to our current circumstances so that we know how best to move forward.

Archangel Raziel’s most famous book is the Sefer Raziel, a treatise on Divine Wisdom for survival outside God’s protected Paradise. This text includes algebraic equations and geometric problem solving for working within our material plane.

Raziel is an aristocrat of the Higher Realms and he has earned many titles carrying responsibilities. As a member of the Cherubim, which is the second tier of angels, and he intercedes on behalf of original thinkers. He was likely one of the Cherubim’s with a flaming shield around the Tree of Life when God sealed the gates to the Garden of Eden upon the first named couple’s expulsion.

Sefer Raziel, also known as The Book of Angel Raziel, was first given to Adam when he and Eve relocated from the Garden of Eden. The descended angels were jealous and sought to keep the couple in a vulnerable, misguided state of mind and living conditions. The jealous angels stole the Sefer Raziel and hid it deep within the ocean. God demanded for the angel of the deep, Rahab, to return the book to Adam.

The book and its universal Wisdom were passed down from Adam for seven generations, to a time it was found by Enoch, the father of Methuselah. Enoch revised the book to explain all aspects of spirit as The Book of the Secrets of Enoch, which is commonly referred to as, 2 Enoch. His connection with Source became pure enough for him to transcend into Heaven on a band of light as he walked with God. His embodiment spreads Divine answers to the mysteries through the flame of Metatron. Again, these images can be described as a rainbow with a pot of gold.

Noah relied on Raziel’s book for instructions on constructing the Ark and surviving the flood. He decorated the Ark with carved images of Raziel in his Cherubum form. King Solomon gained access to the book for fulfilling his quest for ultimate Wisdom, Knowledge and Understanding. The secrets of God instilled him with such intuition, the powers seem otherworldly and the knowledge is now misconstrued to be based on a magic where man overpowers material matter.

Raziel’s teachings reach musicians through his royal position as Prince of the Choir of Thrones, at the third tier of angels. In that persona, he is expressed as one of the flaming wheels visualized by Ezekiel with a thunderstorm in the North sky. Four flaming wheels within wheels were covered in eyes of justice as winged creatures with four heads circled the Heavens with the purpose of carrying those of the highest enlightenment, such as Elijah, directly to God.

Raziel is also the Chief of the Erelim, a member of the Sarim, and the Herald of the Deity. His guidance manifests in the writings of spiritual leaders. He is the potential of existence in the form of the Cochma, which is the second level of God consciousness in the creation of the material plane and the Higher Realms. The two interplay off one another to formulate God’s will. Philosophers Isaac the Blind, Eleazar the Perfumer, Maimonides and Abraham ben Samuel Abulafia based their studies of the Cochma and other theories relating to the sefirot or the Tree of Life on visions from Raziel.

The symbols in my romance suspense THE ICE SOCIETY were influenced by the images of Archangel Raziel. Upon completing THE ICE SOCIETY, I visited an estate of an ancestor I was named after. Just as Archangel Raziel asks us to contemplate our past connections for developing our spiritual gifts with accurate perceptions, I received confirmation of Raziel’s guidance in my family photo.

The Pleasure of Perseverance 

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Overcome

Photo: Hurricane Irma by J. Wilder Bill

Getting through each day parallels participating in a combative sport. We train for what is expected and invest into preparations for the worst. As I write, the state of Florida is in lockdown, preparing for a hurricane that will pass through by September 11th. Power outages are certain, water lines are sure to be turned off, massive trees always destroy houses and block roads. This is followed by flooding, inhabitable housing, and the inability of emergency vehicles to reach those in need. Interestingly, the strongest hurricane on record revolves around 9/11, which is also an emergency phone number.

To understand perseverance, I compare Tom Brady, Rafael Nadal, and Michael Jordan.

A common thread is their perceiving each baby step toward their completed goal as an accomplishment. Nadal ignores the scoreboard during a match, explaining, “You just try to play tough and focus point for point.” His “motivation is tomorrow, just one day at a time….” Jordan focuses on the next play, saying, “I never looked at the consequences of missing a big shot…. When you think about the consequences you always think of a negative result.”

Studies show we release a feel-good chemical when we reach our goals. The more often we complete an objective, the higher the levels of dopamine are in a particular area of our brains. Those increased levels provide a sense of accomplishment, inspiring us to take the next step.

We have the ability to increase our dopamine by mentally rewarding ourselves for doing a good job before reaching our final objective. Brady credits himself with an accomplishment for daily workouts. “I just love working hard. I love being part of a team. I love working toward a common goal.” Nadal enjoys the daily grind, explaining, “The glory is being happy. The glory is not winning here or winning there. The glory is enjoying practicing, enjoy every day, enjoying to work hard, trying to be a better player than before.”

Hard work earns respect from peers. Emotional support boosts dopamine levels. Jordan states, “I want to be perceived as a guy who played his best in all facets, not just scoring. A guy who loved challenges.” Brady says, “My job is to play quarterback, and I’m going to do that the best way I know how, because I owe that to my teammates regardless of who is out there on the field with me.”

A confident winner is unmoved by lack of support. Jordan is inspired by defeatist. “If you accept the expectations of others, especially negative ones, then you never will change the outcome.” Nadal dismisses criticism, stating, “No one is perfect. Everybody does stupid things.”

Joy comes from finding a purpose in the effort. “I’m not out there sweating for three hours every day just to find out what it feels like to sweat,” says Jordan. “Mentally, the only players who survive in the pros are the ones able to manage all their responsibilities,” provides Brady. Nadal “always work[s] with a goal and the goal is to improve as a player and a person. That finally, is the most important thing of all.”

They ignore their personal needs. “When you’re one of the leaders of the team, there are no days off,” says Brady. With regard to physical discomfort, Nadal explains, “I learned during all my career to enjoy suffering.”

These athletes use failures to demonstrate how high they’ve risen. Jordan counts every glitch in his career to motivate himself to improve. “If you’re trying to achieve, there will be roadblocks. I’ve had them, everybody has had them. But obstacles don’t have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don’t turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.” According to Brady, “I’ve never gotten over one loss I’ve had in my career. They always stick with me.” He describes himself as “the kid that was the one hundred ninety-ninth pick that never had the body for it. People didn’t think I’d play one year in the NFL, and now I’m going on my seventeenth year.”

With perseverance, milestones exist each day. After losing, Nadal states, “I will do as I usually do. Tomorrow is going to be a day like any other day.” “I’ve never been afraid to fail,” says Jordan.

Dopamine fuels them with enthusiasm. Nadal says, “I am a guy who likes to do what I am doing with passion….” Brady likewise says, “I always try to do as much as I can do. I’m never a person that does not enough, because I’d regret not doing enough and think I probably could have done more. I probably go too far and have to reel myself back in….” Jordan “always believed that if you put in the work, the results will come.”

Throughout history, man is encouraged to invoke faith in perseverance. “Oh you who believe! Seek help with patient perseverance and prayer, for God is with those who patiently persevere.” Qur’an AYAH al-Baqarah 2:153. According to James 1:12 “Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.”

Life is flavored with obstacles. Perseverance wins, every time.